A reminder for those waiting for their dreams to happen.
Your subconscious knows you could be doing better.
Have you said the following:
If I just had more time I would be able to act
If the environment was just right I could act
If I knew what to do next I would act
The list only gets longer as my dreams move further away from me.
Once I realised the fault in my logic- I finally made headway towards my dreams.
Let’s deep dive.
I have always wanted to become an independent adventure filmmaker.
But I never seemed to commit to the work I really wanted.
I went as far to fill my time completing a bachelors degree in film and run my own freelance business making videos for clients to show that I was a traditional filmmaker.
I kept telling myself, once I got more experience or more reputation in the field then I could make the films I actually wanted.
Did you catch it?
I was leaving the possibility that “I could do it” or “if I just tired” open, but never fully committing to what I truly wanted!
This next part was life changing for me.
I was allowing myself to stay where I was because it was safer than actually dealing with the possibility that my dreams wasn’t what I made it out to be.
I went as far as creating videos for others to stay in the realm of possibilities, because that was more comfortable trusting other peoples vision over my own.
You see, I didn’t want to expose my dreams to criticism or worse I didn’t want to face the reality that I might produce an inferior piece of work!
Nearing the age of 25, I realised that my future excuses would just shift to “I am not young anymore” or “I have to start saving for a house” and so on.
In order for things to change, you have to change.
I was afraid of changing my lifestyle.
This comfortable reality of maybe living my dream was better than taking any action towards my dreams.
What’s crazy was that even though I was moderately unhappy- this was better than discovering the pain that might come facing an uncertain future.
I stayed with the devil I knew.
The bad thing about this was I didn’t even know I was doing this!
I kept telling the people around me about my fantasy land.
Who was I fooling?
Myself.
I had a rude awakening when I began working full-time as a videographer for a marketing agency. During this time I felt like I was not fulfilling my potential. I felt out of alignment because I was no longer being honest with myself.
This unawareness of my fear held me back.
Yes, I still learned a ton and life is a journey but I spent so much time never listening to my true self.
This is why I wanted to write about this.
Because the worst part of this mentality was I put less effort into everything I did.
This meant my actions or rather inactions was now impacting others.
If you live a relatively comfortable life, it’s so much easier to just be moderately unhappy with what is. I mean I was making films and it was close enough to my dreams.
I was fully independent, had a great routine with friends, family and living a healthy active lifestyle.
But for me there there is more to life.
I believe we all have our own personal dreams for a reason.
It is only up to us to figure that out and pursue it.
The moment I discovered that I was not determined enough to pay the price of pursuing a goal out of fear of failure was the day I became free.
That’s why they call it a leap of faith.
You have to be willing to jump into the unknown.
This is how life becomes more meaningful, because you are choosing to participate everyday.
You choose to take life into your own hands, rather than letting fear keep you where you are.
It is through challenge we grow, that’s what makes life interesting.
For those less optimistic, what happens when you discover you don’t enjoy your dreams?
Well, isn’t it better to know what your dreams feel like rather than never pursuing them?
Life isn’t what happens inside our head but what we do with that information in reality.
If you take anything away from this blog, have the belief to go after what you truly want.
Be aware of your decisions
Give yourself fully to your true endeavours
Be determined to pay the price of a worthy goal
If you know what your worth then go and get what your worth.
Talk next week!
